The Longing to Be Whole

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The Best Years of My Life?

I was often told by well-meaning adults that the years of my youth would be the best of my life.  But in many ways, these years were anything but wonderful.  Although things at home were Christ-centered, stable, and supportive, life at school was positively miserable.  I remember vowing to remember what it was really like when I was young.  Life was full of formidable hardships and hurts.

Now that I’m older, it is much clearer that every life-stage is filled with tests, trials, and tribulations. They are inherent to the fabric of life within a fallen world.  For many, however, it is all too easy to see the past through rose-colored glasses, only recalling the joys and few, if any, of the sorrows.  In retrospect, the years of youth particularly seem like a time filled with wonder, strength, and beauty.  We long to be young again.

The Price of Wisdom

Part of this longing, I think, is produced by the physical reality of aging.  Herein lies a study in contrast.  On the one hand, with age comes wisdom.  And for this reason, I would not want to return to the foolish naiveté of youth for anything.  But wisdom comes with an unavoidable price—the price of both physical and emotional injury.  And while the emotional toll is immensely important, it is to the physical my thoughts have turned lately.

With time comes decay. Eventually, our bodies wear out and stop working well.  Ever since the fall, physical pain and death are an inevitable part of life.  In some way, shape, or form, we all experience the debilitating effects of sin and our bodies start “giving up the ghost.”  For some, that relinquishing comes sooner and exacts a greater cost.

Properly understood, this can help us contemplate the fleeting and fragile nature of material existence.  My early-onset deafness and chronic back and neck pain (for example) have forced me to face my mortality.

The Longing to Be Whole

In the midst of it all, we often find ourselves longing for the bodies of our youth when we heard and saw with unaided clarity, when we woke up without a morning backache and aching joints, when we had rock-hard stomachs and baby-soft skin.  In short, we long to be strong and young and whole again.

The world also has this God-given longing, but without any real prospects for a permanent reformation. The best they can hope for are more painkillers, a shot of cortisone, a botox injection, a tummy tuck, and a facelift.

The Source of Real Hope

In blessed contrast, believers are given “a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ . . ., an inheritance that is imperishable, undefiled, and unfading, reserved [for us] in heaven” (1 Peter 1:3-4).  There, we will see without glasses, hear without microcircuits and air-zinc batteries, and live without pain.  There will be no more death, agony, or aging.  Thank God, we will finally and unceasingly be whole.

1 thought on “The Longing to Be Whole

  1. Roger Hedlund

    Lewis, Thanks for your reflections. I can identify: not everything from my childhood was perfect. I remember many imperfections, pain, evidence of the FALL. Speaking of which, June and I now live among people prone to “fall” [literally] here at Plymouth Village. Yesterday one of our Sharondale neighbours landed up here in “The Village” for therapy and recuperation from a nasty “fall”. As we endeavour to write our Memoirs, we are reminded of some of our falls–not necessarily good reading material. Pray we’ll have wisdom as well as time to progress in that assignment. ### Speaking about writing, I wonder if among your blogs and other reflections you might have any devoted to ‘JESUS’? — The current issue of Dharma Deepika is devoted to JESUS AND JESUS MOVEMENTS, and I have written a longish paper on that theme. But we have room for a couple more papers on related themes. In case you have any, would you consider publication in DD? [I’m no longer the managing editor, but I’m working with DD on this particular issue.] They need the submissions before the end of Jan…. Blessings, Roger Hedlund

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